Deepest Wishes

I wish for all the world
For you to embrace me
But alas that will never happen
For it is I you never see
I am an invisible body
Never really there
And whether or not you see me
I have come to not really care
It is you who expressed an interest
It is you I respond to
Then you shot me down
And made my life this shade of blue
Why does it have to be this way
It just doesn't make any sense
The way you sometimes look at me
Makes my muscles all so tense

May 18, 1997

Sara R. Barthol